the next interview.. at least i know where it is at!

i've got another interview at a hotel in minneapolis tomorrow. i had said that i seen where this interview was, the last interview that i had. i'm gonna review my resume a few more times to prepare for the interview. i'm thinking about whether i should consider going to a job fair to get my resume out there to employers. i feel like i went to one a long time ago, when i lived in burnsville- but now that i think about it, i'm not sure a job fair would be very helpful to me considering A LOT of the time i lived in that particular apartment (in burnsville) i was unemployed but that may also be because it was a SUBSIDIZED apartment and i could only work part-time jobs for a specific amount of hours.. so not much has changed with my job situation but i'm slowly being able to work actual jobs for more hours now i think. i'm serious when i say this- i NEED to be working a job that's something constructive because otherwise i get myself into trouble and/or have too much time to think about how shit sucks for me. (i can hear amanda saying after she reads this, "ha! that idiot thinks she can work a job! ALL SHE CAN DO IS GO TO THE COURAGE CENTER!".. see that? THAT is the kind of "support" i'm just expected to take like a mentally disabled handicap person.. i hope my grandma wasn't hoping amanda would "help" me like she is now.. she CLAIMED amanda had "all these plans for you! to help you get your driver's license back and get you living in new york when i die!" HAS SHE DONE EITHER? HELL NO. i'm getting the impression that amanda just assumed i'd be like my mom and content living depending on social security.. i got news for her NAIVE ASS.. my mom and i are completely DIFFERENT people. she was BORN with her disability- so she got comfortable just living on social security.. I got my brain injury during a CAR ACCIDENT. before the car accident- I WAS AN HONOR ROLL STUDENT IN SPORTS. YOU'D KNOW THAT IF YOU ACTUALLY GAVE A DAMN ABOUT ME. i'm kinda getting a suspicion that you're in this for the money.. there's probably nothing left and i CAN'T make SHIT in THIS state. moron. i'm not stupid. the brain injury did NOT affect my intelligence (sorry to disappoint you). i just gotta stay optimistic and keep applying to jobs- someone will eventually decide to give me a shot at working. it's not as easy as some assholes portray it to be getting jobs. #1. are you in the same medical situation that i am so a lot of the times employers just throw the resume out because i have some kind of disability- i know it's illegal to discriminate against disabled people but it's kinda difficult to prove a job is discriminating against you for not hiring you if they aren't BLATANT about it (which they almost always aren't). #2. have you PERSONALLY ever got hired by a job in this particular area? if not- you don't really have business saying how easy jobs are to get. #3. mind your business- insulting me or anyone else will NOT make you smarter or look better to anyone with RESPECT and INTELLIGENCE. worry about YOURSELF. i'm gonna go review my resume now..